This idea of weighing the value of my opinion on certain matters has become something that is incredibly important and difficult to comprehend concerning my ethnographic research. In my ethnographic research, I am studying the chorale, of which I am also a member. Having the insider knowledge of being a member of the chorale, gives me tremendous insight into being able to detail certain things. However, since I want to reflect the views of the chorale as a whole, and not just my own, it becomes very difficult to find the line where I should stop riding my own analysis that is a result of insider interpretation, and instead switch to focusing on the ideas of others. This is one of those areas, where although I desperately would want a clear-cut answer, I do not believe there actually is one. It’s interesting to think about the conflict feel regarding the issue, for I sometimes find myself thinking that since I’m an insider I should be able to tell my own opinions on things and not need to worry about asking others, but then I also simultaneously think that I need to ask others for their own interpretation on things that to me seem plainly obvious.
A perfect example of this is simple warm-up routines. If I were to briefly write about some of the warm-up routines we do as part of the chorale, I wouldn’t feel the need to ask others for their interpretation of the warm-up, for I feel that being part of the chorale, I already have a solid understanding of its meaning. This seems logical, but I still do not feel certain that it’s the right move, and thus why I am posting in the blog about this issue. If anyone has any insight for me that they think could help, please let me know, as I would be glad to hear somebody else’s thoughts on this dilemma.